Rebuilding my photography business has brought me to a very humble place. Before we moved in June I was very confident that I would be successful right away. I guess I was so use to being busy all the time back in Illinois. In teh back of my mind, I guess I thought I would just pick up where I left off back at home.
I've had a handful of sessions in the few months that we've been here. It's been a slow start, but I've loved every single sessions I've shot! In my downtime, I've had plenty of time to research what other photographers are doing in the area and, boy, are they busy!! Then I feel it: the pressure to be busy and 'successful'. *sigh. I begin doubting my creativity. I doubt my ability to grow. I doubt everything about myself. It's a horrible, humbling feeling! My stomach does flip flops when I see other photographers out shooting by an old barn or a field of tall grass with the sunsetting gently behind their subjects.
After sulking for a couple days my amazing husband took my hand, looked me in the eyes and said, "There is no limit on success. You had a measure of it back in Illinois. Take your time and enjoy the journey....we've only been here 5 months!!" It was at that moment I realized that, 1.) I'm married to the most wonderful man on the planet and 2.) comparing myself to others success is unneccessary, distructive and smothers my own creativity.
So, I look to the upside of things from now on!! I'm excited to grow and I'm determined to enjoy every painfully slow and humbling moment! (smile)
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